Words & Water, Part 2

Feeling discombobulated, needing to untangle my thoughts and feelings, to make sense of them and find a way to move into this week, with a clear head and a strong heart.

A dip in the river who flows in Dedham early this morning, then a walk in the pouring rain this afternoon.

I receive so much from spending time slowly and directly with nature, immersed in our true selves, we are all nature.

I felt a call to give back, in gratitude, in reciprocity. Whilst the land herself and all more-than-human life were having their thirst quenched by the welcome rain, I collected the many items of our human detritus, so carelessly discarded, evidence of our disconnected ways.

It's a constant dance, a flow.

Sometimes we need to get out of our heads to think clearly, move some heavy stuff to flow freely, refreshed and renewed from the drops above.

The collective energy of the crazy world right now feels like it has hardened my heart, weighed my spirit. I can only contribute positively if my heart is soft, open and flowing.

So today was about reconnecting and finding balance, without losing sight of the bigger picture.

If you've followed my socials recently you’ll have noticed a shift from my usual shares.

Not everyone feels comfortable with me sharing my feelings, considered especially risky on my business page apparently. However, I am expressing my feelings, not political or religious beliefs.

I find politics overwhelming and do not feel able to align myself with any one political party, or religion, 100%. Self interest, misuse of power and corruption are insidious in politics and sadly in many religious institutions too. 

My feelings flow and can change, grow or recede. Like nature, I believe we should never be fixed in our beliefs and certainly not commit ourselves fully to someone else's belief system -  otherwise we hand our power over to another. 

I took part in a protest in London on Friday and spent a great deal of our hours there, and on the train home, with tears flowing down my face. I FEEL. 

My river (water/feelings) flow close to the surface. There are ghost rivers in our society, buried feelings, buried empathy.  What does it take to make them rise back, to be more human again, to raise humankind-ness.

Unfortunately feeling empathy and sadness does not make change happen, feeling anger gets stuff done, but runs the risk of inciting violence or separation. I feel there is a lack of feeling and a lack of empathy in our world right now. 

Feelings need to be felt and to flow, however it's overwhelming unless we have a channel for that surge of emotion. I believe that channel for me is action in service. 

To be of service to humankind, to the more than human world and to this beautiful planet that we are part of. I may not be able to stop the suffering that our government is complicit in, but today I will be grateful for the river who I swam in, for the rain that quenches the thirst of these trees and plants and in reciprocity I’ll pick litter.

We live in a world of illusion and influence. We have become disconnected from our intuition and self-trust, more vulnerable to influence; whether through marketing, propaganda or our social pressures. I feel that to be an influencer (in our modern context) is the opposite of an empath. The act of influencing seems to me, to manipulate or take advantage of others for personal gain. Whereas an empath simply feels the sadness and pain in others, that is not their own, a heavy burden if not managed or channelled elsewhere.

A bit like carrying a heavy bag full of other people's litter all the way home to put in our own bin.

Maybe this resonates with some of you, and if it doesn’t that’s okay, but it's not for me to carry home.

Om shanti

🙏

Sophia

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